after so long…

And so,

nothing ever beats the truth.

Werever u go, however far u may have headed, lies will catch up with & bites you from behind the day u thought u can finally let ur guard down…

Jus when u thought there cud indeed be a happy ending, u’re reminded again that in reality, there’ll nv be sure a closure.

Everyone detests liars & hates to be one.

so, why did i lie?

Many reasons to that question. i can give a million reasons but that sstill, that cant get me off the hook & cant erase the pain inflicted on the victim of my lies.

i’m ashamed.

: )

hehehehehehhehehehhehehehehhehehehehe.

let it go

If i beg and if i cry
Would it change the sky tonight
Will it give me sunlight
Should i wait for you to call
Is there any hope at all
Are you drifting by

When i think about it
I know that i was never held or even cared
The more i think about it
The less that i was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, i can almost feel you
You’re nearly here
And then you disappear

And then i lie all by myself
I see your face, i hear your voice
My heart stays faithful
And time has come and time has passed
If it’s good it’s got to last
It feels so right

***

it’s for the better. There’s alwys this much a person can take and when you know it’s indeed a dead end, all u can do is to have a closure. i’m glad, but that doesnt mean i’m not upset. i’m upset because i didnt change a thing ( i thought i could change you but i failed to do so) and it ended on a bad note. i’m upset because im disappointed and because i disappoint you. i’m upset because i didn’t mean for things to end this way. im upset because all this while, im the biggest fool. but im definitely not sad because things ended. it was totally expected and i must say it’s a good thing too. IMO,i held on long enough and i tried hard enough.

 

but sometimes, it just ain’t enough.

simple thing, where have you gone

for one,drama please stop happening.

for two, can pple please freaking speak their mind!?!?!

for three, can we talk???!!

and lastly,

im done with guessing games, mind games and all sorts.

i think i’ve overstayed and the same goes for you. i realised ive been harping on this for the longest time and something needs to be done.

let a new chapter begins.

PISSED

pretentious people irks me SO MUCH. and adding on to that, pretentious pple who flared up easily over NOTHING makes me wanna throw up.who do u think you are?!?!?!?!!

 

FUCK OFF.

its broken

becos i screwed things up.

becos things happened.

becos it will never be the same.

becos we can’t.

becos u can’t.

becos they can’t.

becos i can’t.

stop.

i can’t please the whole world.

im always pissing pple off.

i wonder why.

it’s over

You know that it’s over when the burnin’
And the yearnin’ inside your heart ain’t there anymore
And you know that you’re through when she don’t do to you
And move you like the way she moved you before

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don’t close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it’s better

its not easy.

i hate myself. i hate diana low qiu jie. sometimes it sucks being me.

soon.

its time for a wrap up. its time to stop pretending everything is okay when its not. its time to face it. i’ll do just that. in a month’s time, everything will be just fine. im waiting.