GREAT LIFE STARTS NOW!

並不表示我　沒有感受

看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同

我不是生氣　只是心痛

最討厭被誤會了

但越解釋　越覺得難過

你可以說人會變但不能說　

你會這麼做　是我的錯

哭過就好了　傷都會好的

這樣相信所以深呼吸著　割捨

愛是為了擁抱　為了牽手

不是為了爭吵　為了調頭

哭過就好了　痛都會走的

記憶有限　所以它會淘汰　懷的

失眠聽歌　想念雖然苦澀

還是謝謝你　讓我長大了

越多美好堆疊的過往

想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷

要找勇氣卻不在口袋或　手上

但它一定在我身上某個地方

nothing ever beats the truth.

Werever u go, however far u may have headed, lies will catch up with & bites you from behind the day u thought u can finally let ur guard down…

Jus when u thought there cud indeed be a happy ending, u’re reminded again that in reality, there’ll nv be sure a closure.

Everyone detests liars & hates to be one.

so, why did i lie?

Many reasons to that question. i can give a million reasons but that sstill, that cant get me off the hook & cant erase the pain inflicted on the victim of my lies.

i’m ashamed.

When i think about it
I know that i was never held or even cared
The more i think about it
The less that i was able to share with you
I try to reach for you, i can almost feel you
You’re nearly here
And then you disappear

And then i lie all by myself
I see your face, i hear your voice
My heart stays faithful
And time has come and time has passed
If it’s good it’s got to last
It feels so right

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it’s for the better. There’s alwys this much a person can take and when you know it’s indeed a dead end, all u can do is to have a closure. i’m glad, but that doesnt mean i’m not upset. i’m upset because i didnt change a thing ( i thought i could change you but i failed to do so) and it ended on a bad note. i’m upset because im disappointed and because i disappoint you. i’m upset because i didn’t mean for things to end this way. im upset because all this while, im the biggest fool. but im definitely not sad because things ended. it was totally expected and i must say it’s a good thing too. IMO,i held on long enough and i tried hard enough.

but sometimes, it just ain’t enough.

for two, can pple please freaking speak their mind!?!?!

for three, can we talk???!!

and lastly,

im done with guessing games, mind games and all sorts.

i think i’ve overstayed and the same goes for you. i realised ive been harping on this for the longest time and something needs to be done.

let a new chapter begins.

FUCK OFF.

becos things happened.

becos it will never be the same.

becos we can’t.

becos u can’t.

becos they can’t.

becos i can’t.